Life

Sometimes I feel like it takes effort to remember to breathe in and out ... my head spins with thoughts ... the what ifs of my life ... this doesn't happen often, but from time to time ... it's a comfortable place to be, thinking about my every breath, deep in worship, amazingly contemplative ...

I am there now.

I am listening to Beautiful by India.Arie ... from her Acoustic Soul album, she is an amazing song writer, her music really moves me.

"I wanna go where time has no consequence and the sky opens to my prayers ..."

I think sometimes its better not to fight the head spin, just to let it happen, let my thoughts go where they need to, to resolve whatever I happen to be struggling with and to then come out the other side feeling better.

"I need to find a place where I can breathe ..."

Down for the count ...

Whew, what a week ...

I've been down for the count with the flu and it's been awful ... at one point I was throwing up in the bathroom while Gracie was doing a mad pee-pee dance trying to step around me convinced she had to use the same bathroom I was already in, and Matthew was climbing between us to try to help her use the other potty ... I wanted to cry, or scream ... and I think I just ended up barfing more ...

Awful.

I got home from an awesome weekend in Texas on Sunday. Sherry and I ran the Fort Worth Speedway 5k. It was a super race, really low key ... I finished in 34:56 which was my best time yet for a 5k ... slowly dropping weight, I can hardly wait to see what my time will be after another 10lbs is gone ... I am on my way.

I just finished straightening up the house ... whew, it feels better not to have my home be in complete shambles ... I am thankful to have energy back, my tummy is not 100% yet ... but I'm certainly on the mend.

Gracie is napping right now ... and I think I'll lay down too ... I do need to paint though ... hmmm, what's a procrastinator to do?!?!?

Thank you Lord for my time in Texas, for my legs that carried my body faster than ever for the race, for my husband and children at home waiting my return and for my renewed energy this morning. You are so good to me Lord and I am so undeserving ... Your Grace is more than I can even comprehend. Amen.

Things to come ...

I am going to Texas on Friday, a weekend of laughter and renewal ... oh, throw a 5K in there too ... will be awesome. I am so excited.

I've been really on track this week ... pointing everything, doing my Shred DVD everyday ... love that I can feel the changes in my body. I am so thankful.

I am thrilled about the election ... let's just get this all out in the open.

I voted for Barack Obama.

I think he will be a transformational president. Many don't understand how I can be a Christian and a Democrat, and a liberal one at that. I love Christ with every fiber of my being, with my entire heart and every ounce of my soul and my goal in this lifetime is to serve Him, to share His love and to live as He would live. I also believe just as well, with every fiber, that as a Christian, I am called to love people, above all else, without judgement, "the only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love." Galatians 5:6 ... I am saddened by people that would speculate about the heart of another person, the deepest desires of another's heart, people that would wrongly quote the Bible in hopes of changing another's view out of fear.

This I know, fear is not of God, my family prayed together this morning for the Obama's, for our country, for the world and in doing so, we praised our Lord and Savior for all that He promises, to make good come of every choice and decision that we, His people, make.

What would this world be if everyone just loved? ... without judgement ... just love? That was the goal of the ministry of Jesus, this life is about love, God's love and showering people with that, His grace, His goodness ... without judgement. This day will come ... and until then, I will do as I do, loving people, wanting what is best for our country, for this planet, for the souls of people.

Whew ... kinda deep for a Wednesday morning?!?

Thank you Lord for my coming trip to Texas, for my time with Sherry. Thank you Lord for the energy I have this week, to work out and eat right. Thank you Lord for the new president of the United States of America, and the promise of change to come, for us, for the world ... amen.

I'm so over ...

Halloween.

Whew. I am glad today is November 1st.

I didn't weigh-in this morning ... a week of candy and laziness would not have made for a worthy weigh-in. I did however run a tad over 5 miles and that feels awesome.

Back on track.

Thank you Lord.
Amen.