Sad day.

Today my brother put down his Lucky dog.

Loren has had Lucky since he was a teenager, in the midst of addiction and serious turmoil ... Lucky was there.

I remember coming home from somewhere, late at night ... or early in the morning ... and Loren was passed out on our driveway with one arm around his Lucky dog.

The kids and I had the chance to go over to Loren's today and kiss sweet Lucky one more time ... she was 16, if not older ... kidney failure. Loren was so strong when the kids were there. They both hugged Lucky and said bye to her.

It's about all the memories ... Loren's journey ... all he has been through, all he has survived.

God bless you sweet Lucky dog. Thank you for loving my brother when I didn't think I could, thank you for keeping him warm when he was not sleeping at home, thank you for loving him unconditionally always.

My song.

This song is my anthem at this exact moment ... the YOU in this song is my daily struggle with fueling my body the right way, exercising and training as I should, my body image ... I've read online that some say the "YOU" in this song is a struggle with an eating disorder, or a drug addiction ... which don't we all have in one way or another?

Gravity
by Sara Bareilles

Something always brings me back to You
It never takes too long

No matter what I still do
I still you feel here till the moment I'm gone

You hold me without touch
You keep me without chains

I've never wanted anything so much
Than to drown in Your love and not feel your rain

Set me free
Leave me be
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity

Here I am
and I stand so tall

I'm just the way I'm supposed to be

But You're on to me
All over me

Oh, You love me because I'm fragile
and I thought that I was strong

But You touch me for a little while
and all my fragile strength is gone

Set me free
Leave me be
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity

Here I am
and I stand so tall

I'm just the way I'm supposed to be

But You are on to me
all over me

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that You're
everything I think I need here on the ground

But You're neither friend or foe
though I cant seem to let you go

But the one thing I know is that You are keeping me down

Keeping me down

Something always brings me back to You
It never takes too long




My anthem. Love it. Download it from itunes ... such truth in these lyrics.

Set me free, I don't want to be held down by you, I am just the way I am supposed to be ... but something always brings me back to you and you are keeping me down.