Balance?

I'm having a rough time finding balance.

I am working more than ever ... or in recent history ... which is awesome and I am thankful. I am loving what I am doing at the Y. I love the Health Smart program that I went to Chicago to train for, I love the results of the program and the relationships I have been able to create with people. I know that God is using me in this ... again, I am thankful.

In working this much though ... I am having a really hard time not "finding the time" to train, but "making the time" to train. I am in a rut and at the moment want to kick my own ass for signing up for the Half Ironman.

I hate satan because I know he uses the times that I am doubting myself to jump all over my insecurities. satan, I hate you. You suck.

Balance ... balancing it all ... being a good Mommy, a wife ... when was the last time I made dinner? How to do it all?

I can't.

That's the answer. I can through Christ though.

I'm having skin cancer scraped from my face on Friday ... my head is already swirling with excuses of having a stitch in my face and being unable to swim. Damn you excuses, that must be satan too.

All things through Christ.

Must. Find. Balance.