Hormones ... ugh.

They suck don't they??? I am sitting here watching "The Game Plan" with the Rock, that cheesy wrestler dude ... it is a Disney movie, he is a football player and he finds out he has a daughter ... blah blah blah, very Disney ... but nonetheless I am sitting here with tears streaming down my face. Hormones, it MUST be hormones ... or I am completely mental.

Sooo, my husband has a job ... temporary, could last for a month or more ... could be a really fabulous opportunity for him, for our family ... eventually. I am thankful but I am heart broken at the same time ... weird emotions to feel ... hormones??? Ugh.

I am so sad about not being home with my Gracie Lou. I was always home with Matthew and I treasured the time I was home with Gracie while nursing her. Thank you Lord for that time.

I know you have a plan for us Lord and I will trust in Your timing for my family. You have it planned for me to continue working for this moment in our lives and I will trust that You too have it planned for our Gracie to be loved during the day and You know who will care for her ... just as we would.

Help me Lord to remember that our lives are for Your glory ... that this new job for my husband is Your will being done in our lives ... that the Denver Foundation sees the talents in Caloy that You have blessed him with.

A dear friend told me about a song by Casting Crowns called "Somewhere in the Middle" ... and I feel that way right now. Between being so thrilled for my husband and some kind of deep sadness knowing that the change we have been praying for is actually happening ... and not as I pictured it ... I am somewhere in the middle. Surround my husband, myself, Matthew and our Gracie Lou with your love Lord ... so tangible that every step we make, we know it is led by Your hand and a part of Your plan. Amen.

Hormones ... whew, they do a number on us don't they? So NOT fair ... to watch a Disney movie, be in tears and then blogging my deepest thoughts and prayers. Maybe I need chocolate ... that makes everything equal out right??? A bath? Sleep? Yes, sleep is what I need.