10 weeks left ... and counting.

So, I made it through Week 1 of Y Camp. Whew, and what a week it was ... I have really great staff, and everything went wonderfully smooth. No kids were kicked out this week, and that is a victory in and of itself. We had a few behavior slips ... but all in all, it was a great and exhausting week! 10 weeks left ...

I was nervous about my weigh-in this morning ... had my period last week, way-over-stressed, working 12 hour days and eating a few too many bagel chips since I didn't prepare and pack a decent lunch ... oh and I also didn't get a day of exercise in ... so I thought for sure I would have had a lousy weigh-in this morning ... BUT ...

I was only up 0.2! Yes, the same 0.2 that I have been dancing with for sometime now ... on and off, 0.2 up, 0.2 down ... I am really thrilled after having the crazy week I did, that I am still maintaining my overall loss, so I am counting this as a HUGE victory.

Last week I also started something I have never done in my life ... I am seeking the wise counsel of a Christian woman named Nancy. She is an angel. Nancy is a therapist that a friend told me about ... and I am just so blessed that God lead me to her. She told me that when the student is ready then God presents the teacher. I am ready and she is available, and already great things are happening.

In this journey, of getting healthier ... it has been on my heart for sometime to really deal with the issues that have kept my weight on and off and on again for my entire life. It is time to deal with things in my life that have burdened my heart and soul deeply, it is time to let these things go.

As I have lost weight before in my life, this is just different now. I am settled in my life ... I have an amazing family ... we have a beautiful home ... my life just feels complete, like I can take in a good deep breath and look around at the blessings that abound, exhale and just be full of thankfulness. So, I am ready, I am ready to deal with my burdens, my issues, my baggage ... the kinds of things that everyone has in one way or another. I want to be free.

Thank you Lord, for this journey, for the 0.2 loss or gain, for the changes in my soul. Thank you for Nancy and giving me a safe place to really get into the depth of my weight issue. Thank you for my job at the YMCA, for the children that I am entrusted with, for the staff that keeps me smiling and for the simple fact that I get paid to play all day. Thank you Lord for my husband and his unconditional love and support. Thank you for giving him a heart of understanding, while I am on continuing on this journey ... that he just loves me as I am, in this place, at this moment. Thank you for my Matthew and Grace. Thank you for their spirits, for their sweet faces as we pray together every night, for the joy in their faces when I come home everyday. Thank you for the sunshine today, as the rain has passed and the grass seems to be a more beautiful green than I have seen before. I will breath deep Lord and know that You are working on my heart and soul and in turn my body will glorify You more and more, if only at 0.2 lb a week. Amen.