How does that go?

"The best laid plans ... "

Something, something ... go awry?

That's for sure. This week has been crazy and it's only Wednesday. I am home with Matthew, he is sick ... and although I was sick all last week, I still went to work, but I can't take him with a 101.5 + fever. It's nice to be home this morning. Caloy will work 1/2 day and when he gets home, I'll go into work. I had really planned out a great week too ... but somehow it's just not happening. (shrug).

My entire take on this getting in shape deal is so different than ever before in my life. I am enjoying my new found attitude. I am making good choices and exercising, but I am not being a freak about it.

This week and last I've had a hard time journaling all that I have been eating and I have certainly not been exercising since feeling like I was hit by a truck (oh, yes and I started my period this morning too! Nice.) ... but I am also (for the 1st time ever) not completely stressing about it. I am not beating myself up, I am not sabotaging my efforts thus far ... I am just rolling with the punches and doing what I can do in this moment.

I am thrilled with my loss so far ... I am at 16.8 lbs and down a good size or 2 now. I would love to lose another 16.8 lbs ... and I will. I am making deep changes in my heart and soul, changes that have been a long time coming.

In previous attempts at weight loss, I have been fanatical ... and that serves no purpose but to make myself crazier ... which most would agree, I do not need. I am really enjoying this journey, and with every change in the scale, I just know so deep in my soul that I won't ever be at that weight again.

Maybe it's my age? Where I am in my life? Just this content satisfaction that I am doing something amazing, physically and emotionally, that will bless my husband and children, my friendships and family ... slow as it may be ... "The best laid plans of mice and men often go astray" ... that's it. Thanks google.

Yep, plans go astray. I will count it as a huge victory how I emotionally adjust and deal now ... just rolling with it all, what more can I do?

I will just try again today ... I will enjoy a perfectly ripe summer nectarine, and I will write it down, I will enjoy a cup o' joe and write that down too. I hope to exercise tonight after work. I will lay in bed and rub my hot Matthew's back till he sleeps. I am thankful for this day, for my blog and the peace it brings me to share my thoughts.

Happy Wednesday.