That's how it feels ... when I look at myself in the mirror ... yep, naked, in all my glory ... who is that person? Kinda looks like me ... I can see my freckles, and yep, sure enough, those are my blue eyes ... (and the Lord speaks to me ... I love you Jessica, just as you are) ... a deep breath, and it is me, I can see it now. Another deep breath and I fall to my knees ...
Lord,
You made this very body ... you placed every freckle on my face ... you gave me eyes like the ocean ... You gave me 5 feet and 2 inches to look out into the world ... I am thankful for the abilities you have blessed me with. I can run and jump and dance ... ohhh, Lord, can I ever dance ... and You know how much joy that brings me. I love to dance Lord. I love to be silly and dance with my children and I love to be held by my husband when he slowly rocks me back and forth to music he can not hear. I am blessed Lord.
So, it is this very day that I surrender and will take another step closer to being the woman, spiritually, mentally and physically that You desire for me Lord. The healthly lifestyle You offer me Lord, the mountains out my very door for me to climb, I will be healthy, I will do what is right for my body and eat only what is necessary, I will exercise and slowly get out of this fat suit I am stuck in ... for a moment, only for a moment do I feel stuck ... every time I breathe deep and pray Lord, I can unzip it further.
Thank you Lord for the sounds of my children playing while I sit here and type ... Amazing Grace playing through my computer.
To greater health, love of myself and being closer to you Lord ...
AMEN.
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