Jesus and Salt-n-Pepa ...

I just finished 1/2 of my long run ... a wise friend told me (and I know she is thinking, haha, I am not wise) ... she said not to split your long runs ... but we have Playhouse Disney Live to go to ... and I don't have the time, so 1/2 now and 1/2 after ... she'd understand and in her wisdom, she'd say "do what you have to do, your family is 1st" ... I love her perspective on life. She is an amazing woman, I wish I could see her more.

What does that have to do with Jesus and Salt-n-Pepa you ask?

I was in a great part of my run, really on it, great pace, and I was praising Jesus for my body and the ability to run ... at the same time my ipod switched to "Push It" by Salt-n-Pepa, which was the perfect running song for me I found, great pace, constant beat ... I was so into it, I got chills while I was running even, I could feel Jesus' hand on my back pushing me along, He is proud of me ... I think moments like that are when He is smiling and thinking, You are doing so well my daughter, Thank you Jesus.

A long time ago I made a motivational poster ... cutting out pictures, phrases and so on from magazines, glued them on a big poster board and even had it laminated. It has a picture of a woman rock climbing and words like "break through" "triumph of the spirit" "body confidence" I put scripture on it too ... "I can do all things through Christ" ... it's a fun poster ... something you might do when you are 12 and have boy pictures from Teen Bop magazine. Hahaha.

I moved it from under my desk, which was a great place for a motivational poster, and I hung it right in front of my treadmill, so it is the only thing I see while I am running and working out. It was great to read it over and over as I was just running ...

So, I feel the need to say as well that this isn't about a size 2 ... a 4 or a 6 even ... this is about spending more time worshiping my Lord and Savior than thinking about how my thighs rub together and could possibly start a fire if they were dry enough. This is about looking in my mirror and seeing all that is right instead of what I think is wrong. Jesus looks at me and doesn't see anything wrong, I am loved JUST AS I AM. It is learning to accept that, to BELIEVE that ... in this process to be stronger, healthier and a better role model for my children ... if a size 8 or 10 comes with that ... then yeeeee haw.

I realize too, when I am taking time to beat myself up ... when I am using energy to think about how my this and that is not how they were at whatever point in my life, then at that exact moment, Satan is winning, he has a stronghold on my life and my focus is not on God. No longer ... I surrender it all Jesus.

Amen.